I need acknowledgement for my suffering - but how about His?
Have you ever been in a condition where no one really understands you? I recalled back then when I was in depression & insomnia (for almost 20 years) I felt misunderstood (it might be due to my sensitivity at that time), "Just sleep, why don't you sleep?", "Ahh...you must be so tired. Don't you know that sleeping is important for your health & life? You do yourself harm if you don't rest." As the people around me genuinely were puzzled I felt stupid (how couldn't I do such a simple thing) & puzzled too, plus agitated by their genuine concerns. Even it's also painful to be around friends/families who could sleep easily. Somehow I forced myself to act & look normal so I wouldn't be the weird outcast in my social circle though mentally & physically exhausted - this was to minimise sharing my problem to them, it was somehow my defence mechanism as a reaction of my suffering. But yet when they didn't acknowledge my problem ...